I have a dread of killing cockroaches. My theory from the very first time I visited Africa in 2004 has consistently been, “Let it live—there are hundreds more where that one came from.” So while others are screaming and throwing heavy objects at the roach, I calmly turn the page in my book and continue reading. (I will admit, I have had my share of screams, but that’s for another time.) Every time I see a cockroach, I refuse to kill it and walk (or run) out of the room.
This week, an invasion of cockroaches has stormed our house. These roaches have an especially bad habit of interrupting Sam’s bath time. She definitely does not appreciate their visits, so I have finally had to conquer my fear (as C has been encouraging me to do since the first time I saw one here in Cameroon).
At one point—whether it was this week or it was earlier in my conquest over the roach—I realized my main hindrance to killing roaches. I was not equipped with the proper weapon. The only thing I have worn on my feet for over seven months (with very few exceptions) is a pair of flip-flops. When it’s summer year-round, there’s not much need for any other type of footwear. The thought of crushing a cockroach with a flimsy flip-flop simply repulses me. There are multiple factors involved in that fear: What if the roach climbs up the flip-flop and onto my hand? What if my flip-flop isn’t heavy enough to kill him? What if I can feel him crunch at the impact? And the “what-ifs” continue.
When I came across my third roach the other night, I decided that something must be done to stop them. That’s when I realized I would have to upgrade my weapon. In a house full of women, there are plenty of shoes. I had quite a selection to chose from and finally decided upon a pair with a heavy heel—the kind that no roach would survive.
And so, armed with a more durable weapon, I faced my roach head on. I had fallen to sleep that night hearing a rustling in a bag on the floor. I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that it was a roach. But I didn’t want to deal with it, so I plugged my ears and fell asleep. Of course, that night I would have to wake up early in the morning having to use the restroom. As I crept back to bed, a flashlight in hand, I spot a dark blob just beyond my light beam. Sure enough—I turn to examine it and it’s a roach. Having resolved the night before to not let the roaches conquer me, I know my resolution must begin with this particular one.
Thus, at 5:00 in the morning, I found myself chasing after a cockroach with a flashlight in one hand and a shoe in the other. It was an incredible chase—time after time, I struck at the creature, but he deftly darted beyond the reach of the shoe. Finally, hunter and hunted wiped out, I dealt the final blow. Sweet victory! And then I crawled into bed, exhausted but exhilarated, confident in my new found weapon.